So, I was a cynical in my last post....

As I look back I see that my last post was very cynical....the world was out to get me..yada yada.

Amazingly, I don't even feel like the same person who wrote that. I have been to the doctor, got on Antidepressants and find myself smiling more, giggling more and pretty darn happy. Not bad considering that for the past 3 wks, we have been 4 adults and a 3 yr old in the 40 ft RV. The kids moved back here because daughter-in-law got a job close by. We had 29 degree temps at night and had them move in here till they could get the power/heat working in their RV. No popcicle kids and baby for us!

Things have gone pretty smooth, everyone doing their share and taking turns 'training' the munchkin. She is in big girl panties now and we are all so very happy about that!

Poor hubby is having a rough go of it at work. They want solutions to the IT problems but can't give him access to the stuff he needs. They lost the whole IT dept a few months ago and no documentation was left for the next programmer. NO ONE knows where to find the info he needs so its like looking for a little needle in a huge haystack. He is working as a contract programmer and has been working with the stress and fear that they will cancel the contract because he can't do what they want him to. NOT because he doesn't want to...NOT that he can't do the work.... but because THEY can't give him security access to the area he needs and THEY can't get the program he needs to work around it. That is what happens when 1/2 of a company is in WI and the other 1/2 is in ID and WI will not provide what ID needs.

I have seen him eager to go to work, get up and go to work and now its dreading to go to work. This morning we had a long heart to heart. He opened up some and I got him to open up more by not losing my mind when he said he was afraid they would let him go. He is waiting for the shoe to drop so to speak. Honestly, I would rather have them let him go, rather than raising his blood pressure the way it is, give him a stroke or kill him! He worries about making the bills and paying for the RV and lot rent. I could care less about all that, as long as he is happy. He can get a job making less money and it will be tight but we can make it. I told him after the year we just had, we can make it thru anything.

After the talk he said he felt better, he looked like he felt better and I pray that our talked helped him to relax a little more. He would never let me work with that much pressure and he shouldn't either. He is my love, my best friend and my life.....we will always make it no matter what!